Wow, I can’t believe it’s been
almost a month since I posted anything. I let the brain game get the better of
me. Here’s my confessional: I had a week where I didn’t do what I was supposed
to do, and I did what I wasn’t supposed to do. Then I felt bad about it and
embarrassed about writing on my blog about failing. The week after that was
pretty much the same thing except I felt even worse about writing what a
failure I had consistently been. The week after that, I started to settle back
into not telling anyone my results and stayed there for a couple of weeks.
I realized in the past couple of
days that I had ended up right where I had started. The whole reason I started
this blog in the first place was to be accountable and to report my weekly
results! It is embarrassing to report when I don’t do well. Especially since I
did so well the first couple of weeks when I started the point system. Why do I
keep thinking this whole process is going to be easy?? It is going to be a
fight every single day!
I guess the question is: Am I
willing to fight every single day?
The solution I came up with is to do
a reset. I like the point system so it’s staying. The problem is my attitude
and conviction level. That’s where I need to make adjustments.
As part of the reset, I will be
starting my earned points over as well as my total weight lost. As a positive
reminder in the midst of all of this failure, I have lost 20 lbs since I began
in January. If I wanted to punish myself further I would figure out how many pounds
a month that averages out to…no thanks. I think I will take comfort in the fact
that it took me a long time to get here, but I wouldn’t want those pounds back!
My next milestone date is 4 weeks
away on September 9, 2013. I have some aggressive goals set for then. In the
meantime, I WILL be back next week. Good or bad.
